Stephen pointed to an add in our local paper the other day. In bold black letters my name appeared in the add? I have always been told every one has a twin and over the years I have found comfort in the thought of some one else out there. I had always believed them to have all the things that I did not. I imagined them achieving great successes. I discovered that my other self, was not a gifted and undiscovered writer, nor a profound thinker. This other self was not even a person who lived in a remote exotic corner of the world. She was not even the carefree, barefooted peasant wandering in the small villages of Italy. Nor was she the shy intellectual that dedicated her life to the study of poetry. She did not own a small dusty book store, she was not that woman who enjoyed stormy evenings alone with a comfy spot to sit and watch as the rain plopped on anearby sill. Or the individual that thrived on good friends and deep meaningful conversations that lasted into the wee hours of the morning. She never joined the peace core, she never lived in a monastery. If it is true that we only have one twin out their in this big and awesome place we call earth; mine I have discovered sells used cars in Cleburne Texas! Considering it all; its par for the course!!!!
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This has to be about the most dull and ungenuine garbage I have ever had my unfortune to have read.
You cry and whine about how you "little boy" (of a couple months)is gone. Well, heres a little information you might have overseen... You did not give birth to him, and he is with his rightful mother now who, apparently is doing a good job. On the same note she probably hasnt given you any news or contacted you because she, and her significate other, does not like you. Try to remeber your not his mother.
Just some helpful critism and advice from a fellow Christian. I pray for you very deeply. God bless thee. O god bless thee!
I am not sure as to what part if any that you reference when you state "un-genuine garbage". I must admit that I have had my fair share of "garbage" in my life, and perhaps that has in some way come through in the way I write? "Dull" for the most part I would agree. I am and have been at a place in my life where dull is more then welcome! That leaves genuine or as you have so bluntly stated "un-genuine", I can honestly say as unbelievable to some that my life may seem, it is in every way authentically my own!
I am most concerned about your comments on "Baby J" I hear with in your words pain disguised as indignation? Though you write anonymously, your tone and attitude are so very familiar??
I know from your words that you are well acquainted with loss; I wonder what has died in you? Was it something that truly lived or perhaps you have only experienced the grief of losing hope for something you once had faith to believe? I am filled with hope for you because you have stated you are a Christian, if this statement was not in jest on your part (it is hard to tell by your words alone) then for you their is every hope!
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